I want this put to an end

When does this feeling of being bummed out over this shit end? It seriously seems like nothing at all can allow me to escape from this feeling, even Tiffany Dunks. I even know that everything is better this way and that I'm better off with things as they were. For some reason though I just can get over it. I fucking hate it. I wish I didn't care sometimes.

Steel Nation was horrible, so was the show, and a lot of the people there. I wish I would have just gone to Red Robin like every Saturday night. Some band from Texas played too, I was actually kind of excited because the singer had the same Lifetime shirt I have. They turned out to be awful, not even upbeat or fun music or GOOD music, and they covered Gorilla Biscuits and all these people pretended to like them. I can't stand that. Just because a band is old doesn't mean they're good and you have to like them to be accepted in the hardcore community. I'll admit it, I don't like old hardcore, with the exception of Jerry's Kids. I only really like newer hardcore and punk like Kid Dyanmite, Lifetime, Knapsack, and Samiam; I even like really new bands like The Mongoloids and Trapped Under Ice. I fucking love The Mongoloids. I understand that knowing the roots of hardcore and punk is important and everything if you're seriously into it, but I'll never pretend to like bands like Youth of Today and Cro-Mags because honestly, I don't. I respect them, but I don't like their music. I think it's stupid when kids pretend to be so into old hardcore bands, like wearing around Bad Brains shirts and jumping around to Black Flag covers just to make an image for themselves and try to make themselves feel more legit in the scene. No one cares, it's so annoying, and anyone with a brain can tell they have no clue what's even going on. They look like bigger tools in Bad Brains shirts then they would if they just wore Death Before Dishonor shirts.